Transition

Hey everyone! Of course as soon as I set out to obey the Lord in blogging regularly, so many things happen and I get weary. (Just being honest). I’d like to share about my recent transition with those who read this. It’s been painful,  yet so very exciting.

The Painful Parts… 

These last several weeks have been leading up to a major transition that took place in my life less than two weeks ago. I recently moved to Mesquite and have been blessed with the opportunity to go to school full time as I pursue my Bachelor’s in Teaching. Sounds awesome, right? It sure is. However, as I’ve stepped into this new season.. there’s been some pain. Here comes the raw part of this blog post. As I have entered into this new season, I’ve had to fully release someone in my life to the Lord that I care about very much. I have repented to the Lord for not trusting Him enough to do what only He can do with and through this person. Releasing them to the Lord is very freeing, its just painful at the same time. There’s been a few other painful losses as well – including one of my dogs passing away the day before I moved.

However, with that being said… I want to share this.

 

Even though certain events leading up to my move didn’t go as planned and there has been pain… The Lord has been so very faithful in this transition. Here are some things He has shared with me (& I believe He wants others to know in their transition):

  1. The new season is better than the last.
  2. He is with me (& you) every step of the way.
  3. Be thankful for this long-awaited transition.
  4. Isaiah 41:10 NLT – Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I Am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand. 
  5. All His promises will be fulfilled. He cannot lie.

This is a time of transition for many. There’s been a lot of shifting and rearranging. I want to encourage anyone experiencing transition to just cling to the Lord and trust in Him. He knows where you are going and He has all the details covered. If He shows ya that there is something in your heart to deal with, just do it. It’s for your benefit anyways. The Lord is preparing you for more. He always has more.

Isaiah 43:19 NLT – For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers in the dry wasteland. 

 

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12:11 // Blood & Testimony

Hey everyone!

I wanted to start out my first new blog post with my personal testimony. There’s such a stirring of faith and hope when we hear other’s testimonies. Most importantly, it exalts Jesus and His Saving power. He truly makes beauty out of ashes and is the God of so many second chances. Through Jesus, and Jesus alone, are we made right with Daddy God. So with that being said, here we go!

I remember as a young girl talking to the Lord and praying a lot. I can honestly say that I had a relationship with Him back then and I was baptized when I was around 7 years old. I grew up in a mostly single-parent home, with an alcoholic parent who did their best to provide. There was never a lack of material things, but my emotional needs were never met or nurtured as a young girl. It was a very unhealthy and chaotic home life. Around 14 years old, I began to rebel in every way possible. I was angry, suicidal, hurt and very lost.

Now, fast-forward to the year 2013. I was 20 years old and smoking two packs of cigarettes EVERY day. I was high the majority of the time and even began to sell certain drugs for a time period. The majority of the relationships and friendships I maintained were ungodly and unhealthy. I hated myself. (Literally) The short of it – I was extremely depressed and lost and I was looking to anything and everything to meet my needs and longings that no one and nothing could satisfy. Throughout those years, I was on and off trying to seek God and even learning and walking through some deliverance. I had a hunger to know Him and for my life to be changed, but I was in so much bondage and sin, that I couldn’t seem to get free from all of these chains. I know I had a desire for a different life and I wanted God to change me. With all of that being said, this is the year God began to radically transform my life.

After God supernaturally moved me away from my toxic lifestyle and surroundings, I fully surrendered to Him. I remember one of the nights after moving away that I cried out to Him saying He could do whatever He needed to do to heal me and change my life. February 2013 was a real turning point in my life and I consider that time to be when I truly re-dedicated my life to Jesus as my Savior and LORD. Meaning, I repented of my sins (the things that were separating me from Him), and I asked Him to help me turn away from it all and turn to Him completely. I was re-baptized soon after. The day He moved me was the last day I did any drugs. That first week or two of moving I only smoked two cigarettes and each of those times, I was so disgusted by the taste that I couldn’t physically handle it. GOD DELIVERED ME!

Over time, The Lord has not only delivered me from addiction. He has delivered me from self-hatred, bitterness, resentment, fear of man, & SO MUCH MORE. (I’m telling ya, so much more)

Over the last 5 1/2 years, it’s been a real journey with Jesus – & the journey isn’t over. He is always revealing more about Himself to me and teaching me more about who I am to Him. I still mess up and ask for forgiveness – a lot. The thing is… I’m finally walking in freedom. I know my identity is IN HIM and when you know who you are and whose you are… You are totally free, to just be free!

Take aways:

  1. God can save and transform anyone. The skeptic, the druggie, the atheist, the muslim, the sex-trafficking leader. Jesus came, died and was resurrected for everyone.
  2. You still mess up after giving your life to Jesus and walking in RELATIONSHIP with Him. 
  3. Jesus > religion.
  4. You don’t have to first clean up and then come to God. You go to God and ask Him to clean you up. 
  5. Repentance = turning away from sin. It’s not any type of scary or bad word. Repentance brings TRUE freedom and demolishes the wall of sin separating you from The One who created you. 

“And they have defeated him by the blood of the Lamb and by their testimony. And they did not love their lives so much that they were afraid to die.” – Revelation 12:11 NLT

“They defeated him through the blood of the Lamb and the bold word of their witness. They weren’t in love with themselves; they were willing to die for Christ.” Revelation 12:11 The Message//Remix

“To all who mourn in Israel, He will give a crown of beauty for ashes, a joyous blessing instead of mourning, festive praise instead of despair. In their righteousness, they will be like great oaks that the Lord has planted for His own glory.” – Isaiah 61:3 NLT

Love & Authority

For the last month and a half (maybe a bit longer), the Lord has really been speaking to me about love and authority. Holy Spirit is so awesome and sweet to teach such VALUABLE Kingdom lessons that we could never learn on our own. The Lord’s thoughts truly are higher than ours. (Isaiah 55:8-9)

We often hear of ‘Christians” judging and condemning those that do not have it “all together.” Such as viewing drug addicts, alcoholics, prostitutes and the homeless as less-than. It’s ironic that these very people are who we, as Sons and Daughters of God are called to love. Jesus himself loved the outcast. He loved the “untouchables.” He loves today’s lepers. My heart hurts for the way Jesus has been represented by these peoples and groups who are in bondage to a religious spirit.

Kingdom Lesson

Where we don’t love, we do not have authority. Where we love, we have authority. It’s as simple as that. If we are not loving the “outcast,” how do we ever expect God to use us to call them forth into their God given destiny and identity? I’m not saying we should condone sin. Absolutely not. However, I am saying that love covers all. We must remember that when we were held in shackles and chains, Jesus came and saw as as we WOULD be. His love and invitation to Himself called us into our God given destiny and identity. What would happen if the Bride of Christ truly loved? I am convinced that everything would shift. Again, we have authority where and when we love. If we want to be used by the Lord to bring glory to Him and bring souls into His Kingdom, we must love.

I am truly grateful that Holy Spirit has been teaching me this and I believe He will continue to do so. This truth has completely penetrated my heart and I want even more revelation of this truth. We have authority. We are Sons and Daughters. Let us love.

 

“My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,” says the Lord“And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine. For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.” Isaiah 55:8-9

Then Jesus came to them and said, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.” Matthew 28:18-20

Keep Your Eyes Fixed

Last week I was reminded of one of the stories of Peter. It’s the one about Peter walking on the water. Matthew 14:22-32 says this, “Immediately after this, Jesus insisted that His disciples get back into the boat and cross to the other side of the lake, while He sent the people home. After sending them home, He went up into the hills by himself to pray. Night fell while He was there alone. Meanwhile, the disciples were in trouble far away from land, for a strong wind had risen, and they were fighting heavy waves. About three o’clock in the morning Jesus came toward them, walking on the water. When the disciples saw Him walking on the water, they were terrified. In their fear, they cried out, “It’s a ghost!” But Jesus spoke to them at once. “Don’t be afraid,” He said. “Take courage. I am here!” Then Peter called to Him, “Lord, if it’s really you, tell me to come to you, walking on the water.” “Yes, come.” Jesus said. So Peter went over the side of the boat and walked on the water toward Jesus. But when he saw the strong wind and waves, he was terrified and began to sink. “Save me, Lord!” he shouted. Jesus immediately reached out and grabbed him. “You have so little faith,” Jesus said. “Why did you doubt me?” When they climbed back into the boat, the wind stopped. Then the disciples worshipped him. “You really are the Son of God!” the exclaimed.”

There’s so much to say about this awesome story, but there is one part in particular that I am really relating to right now. Peter stepped out. He stepped out into the unknown. Can you imagine? It is so hard to step out and take a risk sometimes (or all the time). The reason Peter was able to step out is because he had his eyes fixed on Jesus. He had his focus completely on the King of kings and was able to do what seemed impossible. He then saw the strong wind and waves and began to sink. The reason why he began to sink is because he took his eyes off of Jesus. Oh how I totally relate! Last week I completely focused my eyes on the world, the unknown, the problems and became absolutely terrified.. just as Peter did.

As the story goes on, Jesus responds to Peter. When I first read this text I thought to myself… At least Peter tried? Why did Jesus say to Peter that he had so little faith? But then I realized that Jesus wasn’t scolding Peter. He never condemns us. This was more of a heartfelt cry from Jesus. I think of a loving earthly father. When a dad’s children don’t trust in him or his provision and protection for them, he is hurt. I really believe this was just as Jesus was in that moment. He so deeply wanted Peter (and wants me and all of us) to trust in Him, His ways, and His provision.

I’m so thankful that no matter what storms and chaos this life brings, I have the privilege to keep my eyes on King Jesus. He is my protector and no matter what, He will never fail me. He is the calm in all of our storms. When we loose faith and take our eyes off of Him, He immediately reaches out and grabs our hands when we call to Him.